OTH 322.

I always love this part.. it was a sad and heartbreaking moment for brooke.

Lucas : So you gonna tell me what this is about?

Brooke : Maybe you should tell me about it.

Lucas : What's that supposed to mean?

Brooke : Peyton tells me some things about the two of you.

Lucas : Look. Brooke. I know that you worry about my pass. But Peyton, ..you have to understand the circumstances this time you know. i mean.. gosh she was bleeding and she thought she was going to die. i mean the kiss.. it meant nothing!

Brooke : What kiss? Did you kissed her again?

Lucas : Look Brooke i need you to listen to me! ok. i understand that you didn't know about the kiss and i'm sorry for spring it on you but i meant what i said. it didn't meant anything!

Brooke : A kiss always mean something.

Lucas : Maybe you're right but it wasn't a romantic moment. And you would've known that. And..

Brooke : And what? if i was there? and you so sweetly pointed out the party. the party that i threw for you! i wasn't there was i?

Lucas : Is it impossible for you to forgive me? I forgave you.

Brooke : For what?

Lucas : For sleeping with Chris Keller.

Brooke : And you know what Lucas.. i loved you for that? you had such grace in that moment that i fell in love with you.. all over again.. i can't believe that you would use it.. that was a bargaining chip.

Lucas : no. i'm not i'm not.. i need you to trust me and believe me when i tell you that my heart is with you. but part of me feels like ever since we got back together you just been waiting.. waiting to push me away.

Brooke : ouhh great.. you kissed Peyton again.. and i'm pushing you away!

Lucas : I love you brooke. i don't know how else to say.

Brooke : How about you show it?.. i'm not pushing you away Luke.. i'm holding on for your life but i need you to need me back. ok. why wouldn't you tell me about the kiss and why you didnt call me while you were away and why won't you ever just let me all the way in??

Love.me
xoxo

OTH 501.

Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday.
Graduating high school.. Saying goodbye..
But feelings that you get at 17 or 18 that nobody in the history in the world has ever been this close
has ever loved fiercely..
or laughed as hard..
Or cared as much..

Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday..
and sometimes it feels like someone else's memory..

Love.me
xoxo

Cute stuff 5.

1.What are your favorite colors?

*black + olive green

2.What is your fashion philosophy?

*be confident and style my own. wink*

3.Describe your style:

*simplicity + classy + sophisticated. lol

4.Are you a trend starter or follower?

*in between?

5.What current trends do you like?

*ankle-high boot

6.What old trends do you think should come back?

*rome persian style.. wuahlaweyhhh

7.Do you like accesories?

*not really. except for bracelets.

8.What kind of shoes do you like?

*mary janes, no gladiator please, peep-toe, wedges and the most - flipflops

9.Describe your dream outfit:

*its in blair waldorf's wardrobe. XD

10.Ever wanted to be a fashion designer?

*fashion consultant is better.lol

11.Do you like matchy matchy, or mix and match?

*mix and match for sure.

12.What is your biggest fashion problem?

*why do jeans and pants have to be so long? so hard to find petite size. only have ann taylor's

13.Do you think it's too expensive to be trendy?

*for sure no. just need a right pick :)

14.If you had a fashion budget of 1 million dollars, where would you shop, and why?

*saks fifth avenue :) would be the first.

15.Who is your fashion guru?

*in style.

16.If you had to pick one designer to wear for the rest of your life, who would it be, and why?

*channel because i always love em. :)

17.Do you like high heels?

*should be for certain time.

18.Do you watch fashion shows?

*not really

19.What is the most important piece in your wardrobe?

*come and see :p

20.The second most important?

*you should come and see!!lol

21.What one piece are you dying to add to your wardrobe?

*hurmm. x jmpe gih. mybe

22.What do you think is the most fashionable city in the world?

*new york paris and milan and tokyo

23.What is the most money you have spent on a pair of jeans?

*versace's urmm 5oo kowt. .lol

24.Do you shop online for clothes?

*never.

25.If so, what stores?

*never lah.

26.Who is the trendiest person you know?

*too many too list.

Good or Bad Trends:

1.Leg Warmers?

*good :). love it

2.Bell Bottoms?

*yeap2.. but prefer boot cut :p

3.Jelly Shoes?

*cute

4.Scrunchies?

*at home purpose.lol.

5.High-Wasted Pants?

*better be a high-waisted skirt :p

6.Cow Boy Hats?

*seldom wear hats.but its gonna look cool

7.Head Bands?

*yeahh.. thats cute.. like blair's :)

8.Gladiator Sandals?

*like nevaaa!

9.Snake Jewelry?

*erhh?

10.Concert Tees?

*if the design is cool then yeaaa

11.Leopard Print?

*ermm.tapelahh.hahaha

Cute stuff 4.

1. Name one person who made you laughed last night.

*make me laugh? sangat xde. pasal x kluar. lol

2. What were you doing at 0800?

*off my alarm. XD

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

*facebook-ing??

4. What happened to you on last raya?

*chilling-la-sangat. small cracked open house

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?

*"TAK ADA" hawhaw

6. How many beverages did you have today?

*my mineral bottle je T.T

7. What color is your hairbrush?

*brown :)

8. What was the last thing you paid for?

*silly geomass makan2 thingy?? eeeyeeeww *jahatnye*

9. Where were you last night?

*home. too lazy to go out

10. What color is your front door?

*"dark chocolate" brown. lol

11. Where do you keep your change?

*clutch, side pocket. hihi

12. What’s the weather like today?

*raining

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?

*green cashew pecans.

14. What excites you?

*holidays + usa + europe + mauritius. :)

15. Do you want to cut your hair?

*feels like it

16. Are you over the age of 25?

*nope.still 22

17. Do you talk a lot?

*depends. bila masuk air then yes XD

18. Do you watch the O.C.?

*uhhuhh :) love summer :) + seth cohan

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?

*steven spielberg??? lol

20. Do you make up your own words?

*always does.. people usually dont understand; rofl

21. Are you a jealous person?

*should i?? not really.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.

*ailin

23. Name a someone whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.

*kree

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?

*mama

25. What does the last text message you received say?
*from ailin; so esok jadi ka tgk movie? if nk tgk ngan zaza tonight oso can.

26. Do you chew on your straw?

*eeyyeeeww. no!

27. Do you have curly hair?

*soon. lol.. should be

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?

*dinner or movie.. see first

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?

*yaya --- sorry i put your name here because i hate you so much like hell! you really need a psycho therapy dear.

30. What was the last thing you ate?

*pringles

31. Will you get married in the future?

*:)

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?

*aa??? the only one yg i tgk eagle eye.. and that movie sak.!

33. Is there anyone you like right now?

*yes. since long long ago. never wanna change.lol

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?

*last week. open house sendirik?? xde maid.haha

35. Are you currently depressed?

*everyday. lol

Love.me
xoxo

Construe and render.

I came across this meaningful poetry and i thought of putting it down. And it should be nice of you to render every word from it. :)

Greetings to the continent

I

They separate us
the passports visas frontiers all names for barriers
they rob us with their laws
sending bullets wrapped in dollars
forcing us to choose
and choose we must
there is no other way

II

Friend, you have chosen guns and bullets
many leaders prefer their dollars
for this you must soak your clothes
red grass, red river
children’s weeping
the blood of the exploited

III

You squeeze cactus and grind stones
to make food and drink
girls toil decorated in dust
little children sling on their weapons
you darken the sky with exploding pipelines
others sing in prisons
for the freedom of Palestine

IV

We strive in drying rice fields
daring peasants have begun to clear the virgin jungle
small beginnings in a cloudlike calmness
a calmness that nips us in the bud
we the few are still learning
from all your experiences,
and our own

we shall consolidate the May eclipse
at the true target
of this archipelago

V

Greetings
without visa
passport
golf
colour
to humanity, people,
of all continents.

By.
Usman Awang
(Translated by Muhammed Hj Salleh)

Love.me
xoxo

What i always loved 2.

...Yesterday was a great day and I'm sitting in the car and I realize that none of my great days in my life matter without you. You're the one I want next to me when my dreams come true and you're the one I want next to me if they don't. As long as I have you... nothing else matters.


They give their hearts to each other unconditionally ...that's what true love really is. It's not this fairy tale life that never knows pain, but it's two souls facing it together and diminishing it with unconditional love.


You ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? You know, it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other people's lives we've been in? Were we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true? Or were we there when their dream died? Did we keep trying to get in as if we were destined to be there? Or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think. You could be a big part of someone else's life and not even know it.


Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.


Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes-someone to helps us hear the music in their world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you.


if you're always looking for reasons not to be with somebody, then you'll always find them, but at some point maybe you should let go and give your heart what it deserves.


You can find the good in anybody if you just give them a chance, benefit of the doubt.Sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they surprise you, but you never really get to know them until you listen for what's in their heart.


Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return.


Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. Find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you are leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.

Love.me
xoxo

Cute stuff 3.

1. Can you fill this out without lying?
*yeasss. XD

2. Whats the last thing you put in your mouth?

*Burger king.

3. Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that started with S?

*Mm. hihi

4. Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 22?
*alya.

5. Can you play Guitar?

*hah.. no no

6. Name someone that made you laugh today?

*juwea? did you? lol

7. How late did you stay up last night and why?

*not really late. at 1 something. playing pokemon in facebook. lol dah lame stop since gameboy thing.

8. If you could move somewhere else, would you?

*of course i will. i mean somewhere else better.

9. Ever been kissed under fireworks?

*nope.

10. Which of your friends lives closest to you?

*no one?? eeyeeww.. how pathetic

11. Do you believe ex(s) can be friends?

*hell yes..if no.. u should get over it.. :)

12. Do you prefer to call or text?

*non of em. rimas seh

13. How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?

*lmao.lol

14. When was the last time you cried?

*dunno. yesterday? last 2 days? prolly

15. What was the last thing someone bought for you?
*mama?? L'occitane cherry perfume.. love it

16. When is your birthday?

*November 14th

17. Who was the last person you text message?

*Siew Peng from Cats Whiskers.

18. Was yesterday better than today?

*today should be better

19. What are you listening to?

*Joshua Radin - winter

20. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?

*ajim. accident

21. Do you hate anyone?

*yeah..someone who jealous with me for no reason. imao

22. If we were to look in your phone inbox, what would we find?

*95% text from him

23. Hows your heart?

*it's complicated.lol

24. Your last thought?

*i have to move on T.T

25. Do you like your life now?
*Never been good

Love.me
xoxo

So. Your future is.

Hurmm..ape neh.. first thing should be.. katakan tak nak.. lol.. to what.. to what i'm going to have later on.. my future.. my career.. and my hell life of being a full time worker.. eeyucckkss.. but.. its a no no to procrastinate whatever things will be .. yet,, it seems like you kinda have to spend the rest of your life working.. saying what.. hurm like 20 years? 30? dang.. maybe 40 years.. getting your life a packed cliche schedule everyday.. ok2.. this is kinda bored.. pagi: at 7 je dah ready nk kuar rumah.. shut up with all those congested jam-should-be-like-everywhere.. hell yeahh.. and gonna spend like 9 hours working.. eeyyyeewww.. balek mlm tido.. and tomorrow gonna start the whole thing backk.. sucky gile weyhh.. well. earning money its not easy.. and the same goes to life right. nothing is easy in this world.. that is why it is called life.. XD.. hectic man.. seeing my workaholic sissy, its kinda give no motivation at all.. moreover with what im doing now.. ohemmgeee... seriously i'm in like whatever feelings that i have.. nothing is more than putting out my passion in this world that i'd been studied in the last three and a half years.. ohmy.. just for the sake of having the degree holder.. and that's it!!! haihh.. it doesn't feels any good when you don't have the happiness learning something that you hate.. but i always believe its not what we had learnt. later on, we'll see that whatever we produce and whatever we invented that is the most important thing... alaaa.. keje pown not every time we gonna use ape yg kite blaja kan.. adoyhh.. then why not do an on-job training.. hihi.. since if your life a little bit kinda same like me.. i guess that kinda help.. lol.. but for sure .. for me.. working as whatever thing i've been doing right now... its not what i'll look upon to.. so.. whaetever things.. i'll pray that everyday my life will be easy.. :) and i'm hoping that i'm going to do with what i admire since long ago.

Love.me
xoxo