If I were a boy.

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.


If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed


If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home


It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed

But you’re just a boy..

by.
Beyonce Knowles

Love.me

Second November..

Today..
Second November ok.. :)
I supposed to love every November that comes a year.
But..
This year..
I guess, there is no reason for me to be happy and goofying like usual times..
Instead..
I saw my face become more grumpy and grumpier every day..
Although i just finished both of my final papers..
Yet..
I still have my fyp to think about..
Right..
FYP!!!!
Hurmm..
Why all my sisters never have to go through all this??
And..
They are so lucky..
That they have better jobs than i guess i will ever get..
Maybe..
Because i'm the fourth kiddos..
Chop suey..
Tsk tsk..
Lol.

Wuaaaaa..
Sometimes..
I felt that life isn't fair..
It was never His fault..
But i always blame myself for everything..
But i'll pray..
That i'll be a better person..
Some day..

Love.me
xoxo

OTH 322.

I always love this part.. it was a sad and heartbreaking moment for brooke.

Lucas : So you gonna tell me what this is about?

Brooke : Maybe you should tell me about it.

Lucas : What's that supposed to mean?

Brooke : Peyton tells me some things about the two of you.

Lucas : Look. Brooke. I know that you worry about my pass. But Peyton, ..you have to understand the circumstances this time you know. i mean.. gosh she was bleeding and she thought she was going to die. i mean the kiss.. it meant nothing!

Brooke : What kiss? Did you kissed her again?

Lucas : Look Brooke i need you to listen to me! ok. i understand that you didn't know about the kiss and i'm sorry for spring it on you but i meant what i said. it didn't meant anything!

Brooke : A kiss always mean something.

Lucas : Maybe you're right but it wasn't a romantic moment. And you would've known that. And..

Brooke : And what? if i was there? and you so sweetly pointed out the party. the party that i threw for you! i wasn't there was i?

Lucas : Is it impossible for you to forgive me? I forgave you.

Brooke : For what?

Lucas : For sleeping with Chris Keller.

Brooke : And you know what Lucas.. i loved you for that? you had such grace in that moment that i fell in love with you.. all over again.. i can't believe that you would use it.. that was a bargaining chip.

Lucas : no. i'm not i'm not.. i need you to trust me and believe me when i tell you that my heart is with you. but part of me feels like ever since we got back together you just been waiting.. waiting to push me away.

Brooke : ouhh great.. you kissed Peyton again.. and i'm pushing you away!

Lucas : I love you brooke. i don't know how else to say.

Brooke : How about you show it?.. i'm not pushing you away Luke.. i'm holding on for your life but i need you to need me back. ok. why wouldn't you tell me about the kiss and why you didnt call me while you were away and why won't you ever just let me all the way in??

Love.me
xoxo

OTH 501.

Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday.
Graduating high school.. Saying goodbye..
But feelings that you get at 17 or 18 that nobody in the history in the world has ever been this close
has ever loved fiercely..
or laughed as hard..
Or cared as much..

Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday..
and sometimes it feels like someone else's memory..

Love.me
xoxo

Cute stuff 5.

1.What are your favorite colors?

*black + olive green

2.What is your fashion philosophy?

*be confident and style my own. wink*

3.Describe your style:

*simplicity + classy + sophisticated. lol

4.Are you a trend starter or follower?

*in between?

5.What current trends do you like?

*ankle-high boot

6.What old trends do you think should come back?

*rome persian style.. wuahlaweyhhh

7.Do you like accesories?

*not really. except for bracelets.

8.What kind of shoes do you like?

*mary janes, no gladiator please, peep-toe, wedges and the most - flipflops

9.Describe your dream outfit:

*its in blair waldorf's wardrobe. XD

10.Ever wanted to be a fashion designer?

*fashion consultant is better.lol

11.Do you like matchy matchy, or mix and match?

*mix and match for sure.

12.What is your biggest fashion problem?

*why do jeans and pants have to be so long? so hard to find petite size. only have ann taylor's

13.Do you think it's too expensive to be trendy?

*for sure no. just need a right pick :)

14.If you had a fashion budget of 1 million dollars, where would you shop, and why?

*saks fifth avenue :) would be the first.

15.Who is your fashion guru?

*in style.

16.If you had to pick one designer to wear for the rest of your life, who would it be, and why?

*channel because i always love em. :)

17.Do you like high heels?

*should be for certain time.

18.Do you watch fashion shows?

*not really

19.What is the most important piece in your wardrobe?

*come and see :p

20.The second most important?

*you should come and see!!lol

21.What one piece are you dying to add to your wardrobe?

*hurmm. x jmpe gih. mybe

22.What do you think is the most fashionable city in the world?

*new york paris and milan and tokyo

23.What is the most money you have spent on a pair of jeans?

*versace's urmm 5oo kowt. .lol

24.Do you shop online for clothes?

*never.

25.If so, what stores?

*never lah.

26.Who is the trendiest person you know?

*too many too list.

Good or Bad Trends:

1.Leg Warmers?

*good :). love it

2.Bell Bottoms?

*yeap2.. but prefer boot cut :p

3.Jelly Shoes?

*cute

4.Scrunchies?

*at home purpose.lol.

5.High-Wasted Pants?

*better be a high-waisted skirt :p

6.Cow Boy Hats?

*seldom wear hats.but its gonna look cool

7.Head Bands?

*yeahh.. thats cute.. like blair's :)

8.Gladiator Sandals?

*like nevaaa!

9.Snake Jewelry?

*erhh?

10.Concert Tees?

*if the design is cool then yeaaa

11.Leopard Print?

*ermm.tapelahh.hahaha

Cute stuff 4.

1. Name one person who made you laughed last night.

*make me laugh? sangat xde. pasal x kluar. lol

2. What were you doing at 0800?

*off my alarm. XD

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

*facebook-ing??

4. What happened to you on last raya?

*chilling-la-sangat. small cracked open house

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?

*"TAK ADA" hawhaw

6. How many beverages did you have today?

*my mineral bottle je T.T

7. What color is your hairbrush?

*brown :)

8. What was the last thing you paid for?

*silly geomass makan2 thingy?? eeeyeeeww *jahatnye*

9. Where were you last night?

*home. too lazy to go out

10. What color is your front door?

*"dark chocolate" brown. lol

11. Where do you keep your change?

*clutch, side pocket. hihi

12. What’s the weather like today?

*raining

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?

*green cashew pecans.

14. What excites you?

*holidays + usa + europe + mauritius. :)

15. Do you want to cut your hair?

*feels like it

16. Are you over the age of 25?

*nope.still 22

17. Do you talk a lot?

*depends. bila masuk air then yes XD

18. Do you watch the O.C.?

*uhhuhh :) love summer :) + seth cohan

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?

*steven spielberg??? lol

20. Do you make up your own words?

*always does.. people usually dont understand; rofl

21. Are you a jealous person?

*should i?? not really.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.

*ailin

23. Name a someone whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.

*kree

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?

*mama

25. What does the last text message you received say?
*from ailin; so esok jadi ka tgk movie? if nk tgk ngan zaza tonight oso can.

26. Do you chew on your straw?

*eeyyeeeww. no!

27. Do you have curly hair?

*soon. lol.. should be

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?

*dinner or movie.. see first

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?

*yaya --- sorry i put your name here because i hate you so much like hell! you really need a psycho therapy dear.

30. What was the last thing you ate?

*pringles

31. Will you get married in the future?

*:)

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?

*aa??? the only one yg i tgk eagle eye.. and that movie sak.!

33. Is there anyone you like right now?

*yes. since long long ago. never wanna change.lol

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?

*last week. open house sendirik?? xde maid.haha

35. Are you currently depressed?

*everyday. lol

Love.me
xoxo

Construe and render.

I came across this meaningful poetry and i thought of putting it down. And it should be nice of you to render every word from it. :)

Greetings to the continent

I

They separate us
the passports visas frontiers all names for barriers
they rob us with their laws
sending bullets wrapped in dollars
forcing us to choose
and choose we must
there is no other way

II

Friend, you have chosen guns and bullets
many leaders prefer their dollars
for this you must soak your clothes
red grass, red river
children’s weeping
the blood of the exploited

III

You squeeze cactus and grind stones
to make food and drink
girls toil decorated in dust
little children sling on their weapons
you darken the sky with exploding pipelines
others sing in prisons
for the freedom of Palestine

IV

We strive in drying rice fields
daring peasants have begun to clear the virgin jungle
small beginnings in a cloudlike calmness
a calmness that nips us in the bud
we the few are still learning
from all your experiences,
and our own

we shall consolidate the May eclipse
at the true target
of this archipelago

V

Greetings
without visa
passport
golf
colour
to humanity, people,
of all continents.

By.
Usman Awang
(Translated by Muhammed Hj Salleh)

Love.me
xoxo